So today is the day! I started the 30 day shred, and oh my goodness!
I thought I was going to die. I was swimming a bunch before i was pregnant, a little during, then nothing towards the end. So needless to say, Im OUTTA SHAPE!
Reid has been rather cranky today, and we went for a nap in his swing and I took my 30 minutes and did my first day. Now I feel like jello! I hope to lose 30 LBS in the next 6 months, so I need to keep motivated and get my body back, Actually, back to what it was YEARS ago.
I went through some depression years ago when i entered college, and my family moved out of state. I seem to have gained a good amount of weight and i did not really notice. I was working full time, going to school full time and living on my own with roommates (all boys) so that did not help. It was hard trying to stay focused on the things i needed to, while all the boys were just working m-f 7am - 4pm, I was busy ever day with work or school or both.
I was broke, and most of the time would not eat till i got home for dinner because ryan would offer to buy it. Some times it was either eat, or pay for gas money to get to school, 70 miles away. So I stayed true to school and screwed my body up in a BIG way.
So now that my life is "perfect" in my eyes, I need to get "me" back.
I tired of feeling insecure about my body, and feeling like i have lost "me". I know im not as outgoing as I once was, and I know its because i dont feel comfortable with me, and do not want attention on me at all.
So now that i have totally outed myself and put the pressure on to fine "me" again. Im really REALLY ready for this.
I want to do it for my husband who knows what i once was, and really would love to have the person he fell in love with back. Im so blessed that he is so supportive, and really loves "ME" for me and not my body. BUT, I know he really would love to have it back just as much as i do.
I want to do it for my son. I want to be outgoing so I dont hold him back in any way. I want to be beautiful on the outside as i am on the inside. I know it sounds superficial, but Im not a really girly girl person, im always sporty, and i want to just look better for me and my family, and for my health. I want to be able to play and run with him (i can, im not that bad) but i want to do it and look good doing it.
One of my biggest motivators, PICTURES! I HATE PICTURES OF ME!!
I dont want to have no pictures of my family because im fat! So i want to look good in pictures again!!
Well Reid is calling (Fussing) so i got to go! But I have 30 days to lose 20 LBS and i hope i at least get close!!
Wish me Luck!!
- Kim
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Sunday, March 14, 2010
1 month old
Reid,
We have made it to 1 month and i cant not believe how fast it has gone, and how much you have grown. Each day you amaze me on the things that you can do.
You are very much a morning person, I guess you get that from both mommy and daddy. Although mommy would love to get some morning sleep that is later than 6 am.
You are sleeping well, well when you decide to go to sleep. We have started giving you a bath between 7 and 7:30, give you a bottle right after (that mommy worked so hard to pump so daddy can feed you, and you suck it down faster than i can get it) Then we try to put you to bed.
The first day this was amazing, worked like a charm, then you slept for 4 hours, fed, then another 4 hours, then fed, then 2 hours and it was 6:50 am, so you were ready to start the day.
From then, things don't go as planned, we give you a bath, fed you a bottle, pat you and you are wide awake. Daddy did his first night of trying to put you to bed, he was so surprised it took over an hour to get you to be asleep enough to have you put down! (can you tell how does it more often) :)
As soon as you were born you were wide awake, looking around. Everyone was so impressed how alert you were. I could tell you wanted to see everything that was happening around you. Now you are really focusing on people and objects, you love looking at the fan and lights.
It is so nice to know that you are beginning to know who we are now, I know you knew by our voices, but now you look at us and smile!!
IT'S THE BEST THING EVERY!
Today is Sunday March 14, 2010. While you were in your best mood (in the morning) I was making silly faces with you, and you gave me the best smile ever! A BIG ONE, not just a gas smile but a real smile! It was the best feeling ever!
You had your 1 month doctors appointment this week. You are in the 50% on Height and Weight. You are now 21.5 inches, and weighing in at 9 LBS 6 OZ. You have gained 2 pounds in the first month. That amazes me. You are getting so big.
I am trying to think of anything else i need to update on, but nothing is coming to mind, Maybe because daddy has you in the computer room, and he is having a heck of a time keeping you happy, so i think my mind is not "here" Its amazing how all i can think about is your needs, and you. No longer do i get anytime for "me" but, Oh how its so worth it!
I love you with all my heart and it really amazes me on how someone could change "me" in ways i could have never imagined!
You are really the light of my life, and dont know how i ever lived with out you!
Pictures will be uploaded when i get to my other computer! This computer is crap!
We have made it to 1 month and i cant not believe how fast it has gone, and how much you have grown. Each day you amaze me on the things that you can do.
You are very much a morning person, I guess you get that from both mommy and daddy. Although mommy would love to get some morning sleep that is later than 6 am.
You are sleeping well, well when you decide to go to sleep. We have started giving you a bath between 7 and 7:30, give you a bottle right after (that mommy worked so hard to pump so daddy can feed you, and you suck it down faster than i can get it) Then we try to put you to bed.
The first day this was amazing, worked like a charm, then you slept for 4 hours, fed, then another 4 hours, then fed, then 2 hours and it was 6:50 am, so you were ready to start the day.
From then, things don't go as planned, we give you a bath, fed you a bottle, pat you and you are wide awake. Daddy did his first night of trying to put you to bed, he was so surprised it took over an hour to get you to be asleep enough to have you put down! (can you tell how does it more often) :)
As soon as you were born you were wide awake, looking around. Everyone was so impressed how alert you were. I could tell you wanted to see everything that was happening around you. Now you are really focusing on people and objects, you love looking at the fan and lights.
It is so nice to know that you are beginning to know who we are now, I know you knew by our voices, but now you look at us and smile!!
IT'S THE BEST THING EVERY!
Today is Sunday March 14, 2010. While you were in your best mood (in the morning) I was making silly faces with you, and you gave me the best smile ever! A BIG ONE, not just a gas smile but a real smile! It was the best feeling ever!
You had your 1 month doctors appointment this week. You are in the 50% on Height and Weight. You are now 21.5 inches, and weighing in at 9 LBS 6 OZ. You have gained 2 pounds in the first month. That amazes me. You are getting so big.
I am trying to think of anything else i need to update on, but nothing is coming to mind, Maybe because daddy has you in the computer room, and he is having a heck of a time keeping you happy, so i think my mind is not "here" Its amazing how all i can think about is your needs, and you. No longer do i get anytime for "me" but, Oh how its so worth it!
I love you with all my heart and it really amazes me on how someone could change "me" in ways i could have never imagined!
You are really the light of my life, and dont know how i ever lived with out you!
Pictures will be uploaded when i get to my other computer! This computer is crap!
Monday, March 1, 2010
New born pictures!
OK! So this has taken me forever to update because I have so many pictures i wanna upload and it takes so long doing two at a time, so either i suck and dont know an easier way to do this or this blog thing is a pain in the neck!!
So i will do this in a few different updates considering this draft has been the same for almost a week now!!
Well......
These are our little baby Reid! I just love how these came out!
Reid was 9 days old here.
So i will do this in a few different updates considering this draft has been the same for almost a week now!!
Well......
These are our little baby Reid! I just love how these came out!
Reid was 9 days old here.
Maternity shoot
So when I was 37 weeks we did our maternity shoot, this was the second weekend in January. I would have like to have had them done earlier, due to swelling, but it was so crazy with the holidays and our baby shower the 1st weekend in January.
So here they are in all the swollen goodness!
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